12/17/11

One night Snow tiptoed in this city silently, like a wanderer who only wishes to pass through, and even that unnoticed. But we noticed. We had been waiting and we noticed her steps, although delicate, as soon as light began to climb up the skies. She always arrived already in November but this year always was no always anymore. This year she did not arrive, only passed. I wonder if she has become a wanderer now or if she is merely feeling shy. We've always had a white Christmas but I would forgive her even if this year we didn't. Because this year always is no always anymore; everything is starting to change. Everything is starting to flow, like a river. I feel like a river myself. I'm flowing, flowing; changing. Everything feels light, so light. It's dark but everything feels so light. I dance through the darkest hours and in this I find a great joy and great hope. When things start to change, when always is no always anymore, there is hope everywhere. Hope is when always is no always anymore.

5 comments:

  1. AnonymousDecember 17, 2011 at 2:16 PM

    Snow as a lady wanderer tiptoeing through the city is such a lovely idea and very well expressed. <3 I was hoping for a white Christmas as well, but am not too disappointed. :) :)

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  2. LenaDecember 18, 2011 at 3:36 AM

    Jade - Thank you. ♥ Although this is not about the snow or Christmas even nearly as much as it is about changing.


    I don't know. Lately I haven't been able to respond to any of my comments. I'm still struggling. But. I just wanted to say that this piece is a bit like a subtle hint saying that I'm getting better and that things are starting to change. Always is no always anymore.

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  3. AnonymousDecember 18, 2011 at 4:34 PM

    Dearest Jessica, that is wonderful to hear :) I'm glad that you are getting better. Change can be scary but overall I think change is best, especially when we may be down... to try to stand back and observe ourselves can be helpful as well.

    I love this line you wrote: "Hope is when always is no always anymore."

    And it's okay if sometimes you can't respond.. no worries. :)

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  4. MeleeDecember 19, 2011 at 5:48 AM

    Oh, this is all beyond lovely! The imagery and, most of all, the feeling behind it. I hope you are right, that change is rushing around the bend for you. That makes me really happy. :)
    You are, as always, in my thoughts and prayers. <3

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  5. AnonymousDecember 19, 2011 at 5:48 PM

    Love forever. ♥ "It's dark but everything feels so light." Oh, I could quote every line. You are magnificent.

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