I'm lonely and the night feels hollower than before and I wonder if you ever feel lonely like I do; if there is even a brief moment in your life when you don't surround yourself with people; and if there really is, do you ever feel the kind of loneliness I do. I want to ask you, Do you know what it's like when, in your moment of solitude, when there is only you and the silence, something creeps around you, slowly altering your solitude into the kind of loneliness that eventually will dig deep into you and it never lets go early enough? I want you to know that I feel lonely, that I long for someone, anyone to be near me but I realize there is no one near and there probably never will be; want you to know that I've lost all hope, that I think that maybe I was meant to be alone and that mostly I'm just fine with, that I accept my fate as it is, if there is any fate at all. I want you to understand that I am happy even thought things are the way they are. I want you to understand so bad. I want you to be here, and I don't. I wish you could you keep your mouth shut and hold me. I wish you could come and hold me every once in a while, just hold me through the night, make me feel like I am loved even for a night. I just want you to be mine for a night. I don't want you otherwise.
Wish I could tell you this.
